She had long since made up her mind that she didn’t want children.
She would never experience childbirth. She would never know what it’s like to cradle a baby in her arms. She would never see the first tooth, hear the first words, watch the first steps or witness the first day at infant day-school. She would never receive school reports or be advised of exam results. She would not have to receive school detention notices or letters that threatened expulsion. She would never have to deal with police complaints about delinquency or court cases regarding wilful property damage, disorderly conduct, assault, vandalism, housebreaking, or possession of drugs. She would never know any of this. This was self-imposed. Her resolve was firm. This was something she could rely on.
Sitting in the corner of her prison cell, she reflected on all this.
This all made perfect sense because nobody ever wanted her.