For most of his life it had been as though he’d never existed.
There was a medical term for it; Cotard Delusion, he’d been told. It was extremely rare and was usually associated with other psychotic disorders. People like him also often suffered from additional neurological conditions. He had read that beyond the feeling of nonexistence there were those sufferers who experienced a state of being convinced that they were dead. He’d been through all the material he could find on the subject. These studies had given him a comprehensive understanding of the condition. On those rare occasions when he tried to tell anyone that he had doubts about whether he existed, they just ignored him. It was as though they hadn’t heard him. In fact, no one ever seemed to hear him. He realised that it was this sort of disconnection that was the kind of thing that had caused many of his fellow victims come to the conclusion that they were dead.
It is difficult to say how much more time would need to pass before he became aware of the fact that he was…
